The Imitation of Christ : Thomas a Kempis : Free Download & Streaming : Internet Archive
"He that followeth me shall not walk in darkness," sayeth the Lord (John 8:12).
To follow Christ wholeheartedly, unreservedly, and perfectly (totally) entails sacrifice: am i willing to have no place to lay my head...to let the spiritually dead bury the physically dead...to be tested upon the tempestuous sea trusting enough to follow Jesus Who calms storms and fears? ( Matthew 8:18-27).
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
THANKSGIVING...SIMPLE GRATITUDE
1. I am so grateful that God is in my life....
2. I am so grateful for my time clean....
3. I am grateful for Leary and that she has a loving Mother....
4. I am grateful for a chance to make amends to everyone I have hurt....
5. I am grateful that I am not alone in the cabin, or in the cabin with the demons
of my addictions...
6. I am grateful to be alive....
7. I am grateful to be alive in a free country....
8. I am grateful that I did not retaliate today....
9. I am grateful I am not in jail....
10. I am so grateful for the gift of pain that brought me to my knees....
2. I am so grateful for my time clean....
3. I am grateful for Leary and that she has a loving Mother....
4. I am grateful for a chance to make amends to everyone I have hurt....
5. I am grateful that I am not alone in the cabin, or in the cabin with the demons
of my addictions...
6. I am grateful to be alive....
7. I am grateful to be alive in a free country....
8. I am grateful that I did not retaliate today....
9. I am grateful I am not in jail....
10. I am so grateful for the gift of pain that brought me to my knees....
Friday, November 12, 2010
Newborn
I never want to forget how it was for the last 12 years, because if I do not remember the horror of my drinking life, I'll drink again...and for me to drink again is to die...that's not to say that I am afraid of death...in fact I welcomed it most nights with a prayer..."Dear God, don't wake me up tomorrow."...but He always did...that drinking kind of dying wasn't fast enough for me...I could not quicken death along...I just kept passing out....
How it was for those last 12 birthdays and mostly every day and night between birthdays was this:
COLD...ALONE...AFRAID...HOPELESS...DRUNK....
Finally one night, 135 nights ago, miracles began to happen...You see I was a fighter all my life...I fought to live one Christmas Day when I was holding my warm and shot shattered guts in my hands...I fought to live when all my friends ran away scared...I fought to live when I was abandoned in that barn and making deals with God..."I'll be good...I'll be good...I'll be good...."I fought for life that Holiday when the ambulance attendants gave up...when the ER doctor pronounced me dead I fought for life...I fought to live when I was floating above medical teams garbed in green cutting on and crying over a dying little boy...I fought for life when two world class surgeons told my Dad and Mom that they had done all they could and it was now in God's Hands...I fought to live when forever later my first word was "Mama"...I was still fighting when some said that they saw Angels at the foot and head of my blood soaked hospital bed that Silent Night....
But on 26 June 2010, the real miracles began to happen...I stopped fighting...I surrendered my alcohol addiction to God...absolutely...unconditionally...with no reservations...I turned my will and my life back over to Him...the obsession to drink was lifted from me...my selfishness and fears are being replaced with a true desire to serve my Savior and to help others in whatever way I can....
Miracles are continuing to happen to me today...and I have a brand new birthday now...Not 25 December...not 8 November...my New Birthday is 26 June 2010...by God's awesome Mercy I am no longer fighting to live...by God's awesome Grace I am now living to give.
8 N0vember 2010
Hazlehurst, Ga.
How it was for those last 12 birthdays and mostly every day and night between birthdays was this:
COLD...ALONE...AFRAID...HOPELESS...DRUNK....
Finally one night, 135 nights ago, miracles began to happen...You see I was a fighter all my life...I fought to live one Christmas Day when I was holding my warm and shot shattered guts in my hands...I fought to live when all my friends ran away scared...I fought to live when I was abandoned in that barn and making deals with God..."I'll be good...I'll be good...I'll be good...."I fought for life that Holiday when the ambulance attendants gave up...when the ER doctor pronounced me dead I fought for life...I fought to live when I was floating above medical teams garbed in green cutting on and crying over a dying little boy...I fought for life when two world class surgeons told my Dad and Mom that they had done all they could and it was now in God's Hands...I fought to live when forever later my first word was "Mama"...I was still fighting when some said that they saw Angels at the foot and head of my blood soaked hospital bed that Silent Night....
But on 26 June 2010, the real miracles began to happen...I stopped fighting...I surrendered my alcohol addiction to God...absolutely...unconditionally...with no reservations...I turned my will and my life back over to Him...the obsession to drink was lifted from me...my selfishness and fears are being replaced with a true desire to serve my Savior and to help others in whatever way I can....
Miracles are continuing to happen to me today...and I have a brand new birthday now...Not 25 December...not 8 November...my New Birthday is 26 June 2010...by God's awesome Mercy I am no longer fighting to live...by God's awesome Grace I am now living to give.
8 N0vember 2010
Hazlehurst, Ga.
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